What a Difference...

a year makes! One year ago today, we had our IUI on our most expensive infertility cycle to date (injectables) and I was feeling hopeful, only to have my hopes dashed just two weeks later. Today I am holding my little girl in my arms, and feeling blessed to have her.



Unfortunately, I'm struggling a lot with my emotions right now. On one hand, I want her to be able to sleep and play without me so that she'll transition well to day care, but on the other hand, I really love being able to be there for her and provide her all the love and care she needs. I cried tonight when she fell asleep in the swing, rather than in my arms. Stupid, right? As we get closer and closer to the time I need to return to work and she goes to someone else during the day, I get sadder and more anxious. I know I'll adjust, but it just seems so difficult right now. :(